24.2.10

Who chose the colour of the sky?

Bono 談他中學時母親過世, 自己開始對人生意義的探問 (U2 by U2, pp 18 & 19):

... Religion felt all wrong. Yet outside, when I looked around me, I would see clues that God might exist, and might be interested in us. Then I'd lost hope again.

There was a beautiful woman teaching religion at the time, Sophie Shirley, and she would say things like, 'Yes, it's a fallen world but it's still beautiful. God's fingerprints are everywhere if you want to see them.' So there I'd be, standing on Dollymount Strand, staring at the sea, watching the waves, looking at a storm on the horizon, and wondering who chose the colour of the sky? Who makes the earth turn at this speed? Who invented gravity and who designed girls' laughters? Is it all cold science? Cosmic accidents or creation? Is it love or survival of fittest?

... 宗教讓我感覺完全不對勁。但是出了教堂,當我觀察周遭,我能看見上帝可能存在的線索,並且看見這位上帝甚至可能對我們感興趣。但我又再度失去希望。

當時有位美麗的宗教老師 Sophie Shirley,她說:「沒錯,這是個墮落的世界,但它依然美麗。四處都有上帝的指紋,只要你願意,就能看得見。」於是我會站在 Dollymount Strand,注視海面,觀察海浪,看著遠方地平面的風暴,然後想:是誰挑選了天空的顏色?是誰決定地球自轉的速度?是誰發明萬有引力,又是誰創造出女孩們的笑靨?這些都是冷冰冰的科學嗎?是宇宙間的偶然,還是上帝的創造?這些是因著愛而存在,還是適者生存的結果?

(p19)
Because in this despair, I did pray to God. And I discovered that, even sometimes in the silence, God does answer. The answer may not be the one you want to hear but there's always an answer, if you are serious, if you are ready to let go. Anyway, I had to follow these feelings, or instincts, to see where they led.

... I get to a place in my life where I want to make some sort of spiritual sense of the world. I put out those prayers because I really did think that my head was going to explode, and two things happened in the same few weeks and they both saved my life. And it turned out to be a very good year for me. A very, very good year.

在絕望之中,我曾向上帝禱告。我發現,即使有時是在無聲之中,上帝確實會回應人的禱告。上帝給的不見得是你想要的回應,但上帝必定回應,只要你認真尋求,只要你預備好放手。總之,我必須順從這些感受,或是直覺,看看它們帶領我到什麼地方。

... 我的人生走到這樣一個階段,想以心靈看清這個世界。我發出那些禱告,因為我真的覺得我的腦子快要爆炸了,而後的幾個星期之內發生了兩件事,這兩件事情拯救了我。後來,那一年對我來說成了非常好的一年。非常、非常好的一年。

(Bono 認識了現在的妻子 Ali,並加入樂團,就是 U2 的前身)

22.2.10

現在

記錄一下從決定回上海開始的一些事件,別忘了。

五月份回上海過母親節,提到公司要裁員,但不會裁到我,要家人別擔心,工作很愉快,也和同事和好了,每天都很有意義。媽媽建議我到上海去,別再替別人打工。因為想起我的禱告,決定接受這個建議,回到家人身邊。有人對我在這個關頭離開這麼愉快的工作感到不解,我卻是很感謝終於不是為了逃避而決定離開。

之後猶豫要提早離職,留出一個職缺,還是要做滿原先承諾的兩年。最後配合工作安排多留幾個月。離職的同事回到先前的工作,薪水、職位都更高,中間的空檔回家鄉探望突然重病的奶奶,送老人家最後一程。

八九月連日加班完成任務,十月底交接工作給休完產假的同事,還獲得天團簽名紀念品數件,開開心心地離開公司。

十一月中開始上課,一開始覺得很不適應,問神到底為什麼帶我到這裡。後來懂了,一面感謝神我再也不用借酒澆愁、再也不會宿醉,一面為自己這麼快就忘了自己過去的荒唐混亂、自以為義而警惕認錯,看到不是自己能做的改變有多麼寶貴而滿懷感謝。

大約十一月底,公司正式宣布部門解散。耶誕節左右,和我同職位唯一留下的同事,以更好的條件協議成功,繼續工作。她謝謝我提早離職,讓她成為不可或缺的唯一人選。我說,真的只能謝謝上帝。

上海那邊,這半年多來我又有六個朋友搬到上海,同一個社區裡就有基督徒的小組聚會。大家都在等著我去一起聚會玩耍。

嗯,然後就是現在了。

10.2.10

Tim Tebow


Psalms 23:1 The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want. / 詩篇 23:1 耶和華是我的牧者,我必不致缺乏。

more photos on facebook group
Tim Tebow on wikipedia.

今天 tangle.com 寄來這段 Tim Tebow 在超級盃播出的 pro-life 廣告,在美國似乎引發不小爭議。正好今天基督教倫理學講到「不可殺人」,討論墮胎問題。神的時間總是這麼奇妙 :-)

看了 Tim 父母的這個見證影片和底下這篇報導,好感動啊!


Gators fans urged to don eye black Saturday in honor of Tim Tebow
One fan gives thanks for Tebow's Florida career

By Ben Volin

Palm Beach Post Staff Writer

Updated: 10:54 a.m. Wednesday, Nov. 25, 2009

Posted: 4:11 p.m. Tuesday, Nov. 24, 2009

GAINESVILLE — Florida Gators fan Tracey McInnis considers herself privileged to have watched quarterback Tim Tebow play for four years in The Swamp.

As a way to give thanks, McInnis is asking fans to honor Tebow with one simple gesture this Saturday against Florida State, his final home game – wear Tebow's renowned eye black strips.

She created a Facebook group "Calling All Gators – A Gift for Tim Tebow" to rally the cause.

Tebow turned his eye black into a billboard for his faith. He chooses a different bible verse to feature each week, with his selection of John 3:16 for last year's BCS Championship Game earning 93 million hits on Google the next day.

"I hear stories every day about the special things he's done for people and I think this is the best way we can give back to him," McInnis said. "He's a very special person and it would be really cool if his last memory of playing in the Swamp is to show him he got his message out there,"

It is written

Tim Tebow is known for writing the names of Bible verses on his eye black he wears during games. Since the 2009 BCS Championship -- when he changed from Philippians 4:13 to John 3:16 -- Tebow has worn the name of a different verse every game. Here's a list of the verses Tebow has worn in 2009:

Opponent: Verse

Charleston Southern: Proverbs 3:5-6 “Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.”

Troy: Mark 8:36 “What good is it for a man to gain the whole world, yet forfeit his soul.”

Tennessee: Romans 8:28 “And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.”

Kentucky: Isaiah 40:31 “But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they.”

LSU: Thessalonians 5:18 “Give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus. That’s pretty fitting for last nights game don’t you think?”

Arkansas: Psalms 23:1 “The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.”

Mississippi State: Ephesians 4:32 “Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.”

Georgia: Philippians 4:6-7 “Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.”

Vanderbilt: Colossians 3:23 “Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men.”

South Carolina: Joshua 1:8-9 “8- This book of the law shall not depart out of thy mouth; but thou shalt meditate therein day and night, that thou mayest observe to do according to all that is written therein: for then thou shalt make thy way prosperous, and then thou shalt have good success. 9- Have not I commanded thee? Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the LORD thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest.”

Florida International: Romans 1:16 “I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is the power of God for the salvation of everyone who believes: first for the Jew, then for the Gentile.”

Florida State: Hebrews 12:1-2 “1Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. 2Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.”

SECCG: John 16:33 – “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”

Sugar Bowl: Ephesians 2:8-10 – “8 For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— 9 not by works, so that no one can boast. 10 For we are God’s workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.”

Tim Tebow gave closing prayer at the National Prayer Breakfast on Feb. 4, 2010. "We don't know what the future holds, but we know who holds the future."

5.2.10

自由

信主之後發現世界是反過來的,一直想寫這個題目。前天一位姐妹提到她同事提出的疑問,準備來寫寫。(待續)

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